awareness; meditation and ego

Awareness –energy – intelligence
Elsewhere I had asked whether ‘a fridge can be aware of and feel the electricity that runs it?’ The answer could be that it can, provided it has the ability to look inward, and it has an attentive, alert mind to do so. That is, a man with an alert attentive mind, looking deep inward can feel what runs him from within, the energy-intelligence-awareness that we find everywhere.
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Meditation and the ego:
When we speak about much misunderstood terms, we have to carefully define the words used. By ‘meditation’ what I mean here is a silent mind with which no thought, image or emotion interferes. And by ‘ego’ I mean here the feeling or self-awareness of ‘I’ with or without self importance.
I find that ego is always present in the mind. All the twenty four hours it is there including when one is in meditation. It may not be very active when the thought process is toned down and is almost silent at times. Even in silence the ego is present in the background. Only it is not active.
But in deep sleep the ego is there asleep and is not at all aware of what is going on. The nature does it work of maintaining the body and mind recouping, repairing and rearranging the routine bodily and subconscious involuntary functions.
The ego or ‘I’ has to be there and be attentive in meditation as well, to experience anything at all including the meditative state itself. The awareness may be aware of the state of meditation, but the ego has to feel it to experience. I think, only through the ego, awareness can express or experience. Therefore eliminating the ego or killing or suppressing the ego is non-sense. One may go beyond the ego, understanding it. That is another matter. But there is no need to commit mental suicide, as some traditionalists advocate not knowing the intricacies involved.

All important words in spiritual expression have been distorted and misused in the course of centuries, and it is not therefore surprising that everything we read is likely to be grossly misinterpreted by ourselves. The only way is to look within oneself and try to find out whether what we read tallies.