life's fight

Life has been a perpetual fight for me, a continuous fight against all resistance to existence. Perhaps for everybody it is so in different ways. Having born weak in body, and having barely managed to survive while five siblings died in childhood, my body had to fight against various diseases. A seed sprouts and comes out fighting the earth. Man fights his environment to grow and live.
Eating your food is a fight against hunger. The enjoyment of eating is the pleasure of winning the fight. All pleasures are nothing but fights against unhappiness. Play is supposed to be mock fight. But in reality, a real fight against your opponent is camouflaged in it. Whatever job you do, there are plenty of fights in it. All competition is fight either for survival or for becoming one up over others.
Fight against illness, fight against fear, fight against pain, fight for right, fight for survival, fights for enjoyment of pleasures, fight for making money, fight for mate, fight for prestige, fight for honor, fight for everything else, life is nothing but fight.
When you fail in your fight of life, the fight to retain your body, you die.
The body fights against pain naturally. Freedom from pain is not absence of pain. Neither is it any effort to avoid any inevitable pain. It is complete understanding of the pain and developing the ability to put up with the unavoidable.
Understanding pain is becoming the pain. Does that mean one need not take relief measures? Definitely not. On the physical plane one has the urge to act, and he acts.
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Body and mental restlessness:
For the last three or four days I have been having a very uneasy, disturbed, restless mind when I get up in the morning. It took at least two or three hours for the mind to become normal. It was almost unbearable today morning, leading to a tendency to get back to bed.
But quickly I noticed and traced the reason while taking the morning walk today. As part of feeling fresh in the morning I took a few deep breaths pushing my chest forward and shoulders drawn backwards. Relief was immediate. The mind also became calm with the restlessness disappearing.
So, the reason for the fatigue was the nerves that got strained in sleep due to posture defect. My old ‘spondylosis’ was returning! The problem being comparatively less now, it has manifested itself in the form of tiredness, restlessness, and unknown mental discomfort.
I think that ninety percent of the restlessness of the mind can be traced to some form of the weakness of the nerves somewhere in the body, or some discomfort in the stomach. They have nothing much to do with the mind as such!